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flushingoutyourhead

Sat, 13 Dec 2008 14:45:38 GMT

Hay xanga-

I still keep up with updates, you know ;)
Thought I would keep you guys posted also,

After two spontaneous nighttime dislocated shoulders since last february, nighttime shakes, and tiny daytime giggle-fits, around fifteen times a day when they were worst before they were treated, I've been seeing neurologists and getting tests done to figure out what's wrong. Only less than a month ago I've finally been diagnosed with frontal lobe epilepsy, and my epileptologist has been great and the first medicine he's prescribed has nipped both my nocturnal seizures and my laughing seizures in the butt.

Spring 2008 semester had to be cut short after I had my first big seizure and I dislocated my shoulder and the problem was first apparent. I couldn't drive to school because my seizures during the day were so frequent that it was hazardous, and knowing I was having seizures of such magnitude was risky anyways.
But in the summer after I was put on a first medication, that seemed to be helping for a while, I was driving again and I went back to school full-time. But my shoulder was dislocated again after another seizure so I stopped driving, but my dad and Elena have been real nice and giving me rides to CLC since then.
After then I saw the epileptologist, who was able to finally diagnose me :)

But in the fall I finally got down to trying to figure out a University. I'm unhappy with the commute to CLC and the classes also. The art department is subpar and I'm positive I would do better somewhere else.
So next semester I'm going to Loyola University Chicago, still an art major, but still with every possibility of a double major or minor or anything I want.
The campus is beautiful. And on the floor of the drawing / painting rooms there is an old conservatory that looks out on all the campus and the Lake. I even got a chance to look at some of the work that the students are working on, and I'm digging it.
I hope that I can make it work.

the past is weakness
the answer is war

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 14:59:09 GMT

Since last night I have learned since high school to make wishes at everything again.
"Please let me be brave enough."

Summary-

I had never been more unhappy than during my semester at the School of the Art Institute of Chicago. I stuck with it for the semester but once it was over I came straight home to figure out where I'm going next.

No time to pick and apply for a University for the spring semester, I guess I'd go to CLC and take a couple classes so that I'm not doing nothing all day. I had to face my fear and learn to drive and get my license. Started classes at regular time, was doing fine, yadayada.
Since midway through semester at the SAIC I had been getting nighttime shakes and daytime tingles. I wasn't thinking much of them and sorta hoping they would eventually go away by themselves. Even if I told my parents or even went straight to a doctor or something, it would be such a hassle to try to figure out what the hell they were. When I came home initially, they got a little better. Started driving, got waaaay worse. One night end of February woke up out of bed (I have a loft bed- I don't just "get out of bed") with a minor dislocated shoulder. Since then that's been taken more seriously- I had an MRI that thankfully showed that everything's normal, and an EEG that was confirming that they're partial-seizures. I started medication about a week and a half ago and so far they've been great. My neurologist isn't sure what it is but it might be temporal epilepsy- but with my medication it's like I don't even have it.
As for next fall, I'm right now trying to decide between the University of Central Florida and Northern Illinois University. Northern is sorta my safety- not in case I don't get into UCF but in case I'm too chicken now to get there. I visited the campus and it was so great. Its programs are strong in every non-art major that I'm interested in. The weather's great and I'm sorta sick of the snow after this winter. I'm worried most of course about being so far away from home after having such a miserable time at my first school. I'm not anticipating another horrible time but all this past year taught me was to expect plans to have to change. I'm already discouraged and I don't know what another horrible time's going to do to me.

Hope everyone else is doing fine~

Gonna hide?
Nowhere

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Thu, 10 May 2007 21:18:51 GMT

So...

About a week and a half left of my senior year of high school and instead of working on my very last assignment of all of my high school career I decided to check xanga. Was reminded of the way cool people I used to associate myself with.

How is everyone?

I'm sorry we've lost contact.

I register for my classes on monday afternoon right after my AP Biology exam.
I'm moving downtown for school on the 25th of August.
I'm really looking forward to it.

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Wed, 25 Oct 2006 10:52:32 GMT

Dear Darlene:

I am very pleased to tell you that you have been accepted to the Bachelor of fine Arts with an emphasis in Art Education degree program for Fall 2007. The Committee on Admissions accepted your application based on academic achievement, an outstanding portfolio and strong personal motivation. Our decision reflects confidence in your continuing promise as a student. We strongly believe that you will find personal and creative success at the School of the Art Institute of Chicago, as well as contribute to our community.

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 20:16:30 GMT

...
I AM A SENIOR.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Sat, 27 May 2006 01:38:06 GMT

The second and third of all my oil paintings.
the first is of Gina and the second of Evan.

I <3 oil paint.

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Tue, 09 May 2006 20:22:23 GMT

Saturday, April 22, 2006

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 19:49:41 GMT

War Hero

(edit april 29)
Bleck had me submit what I've done so far this year to the Arts & Riverwoods contest and I got $500 to be used on classes and supplies .

ALSO: Sunday, May 21 at the Thompson Center (State of Illinois building) is the award thing for the best-of-the-best Great Frame Up show (which I have a piece in). Wish me luck

Thursday, March 30, 2006

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 20:13:10 GMT

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 01:18:46 GMT

btw two of my pieces got chosen for the Great Frameup contest (Bleck only let me chose one, though, so I picked my self-portrait).
It's a good year.