| | Since last night I have learned since high school to make wishes at everything again.
"Please let me be brave enough."
Summary-
I had never been more unhappy than during my semester at the School of the Art Institute of Chicago. I stuck with it for the semester but once it was over I came straight home to figure out where I'm going next.
No time to pick and apply for a University for the spring semester, I guess I'd go to CLC and take a couple classes so that I'm not doing nothing all day. I had to face my fear and learn to drive and get my license. Started classes at regular time, was doing fine, yadayada.
Since midway through semester at the SAIC I had been getting nighttime shakes and daytime tingles. I wasn't thinking much of them and sorta hoping they would eventually go away by themselves. Even if I told my parents or even went straight to a doctor or something, it would be such a hassle to try to figure out what the hell they were. When I came home initially, they got a little better. Started driving, got waaaay worse. One night end of February woke up out of bed (I have a loft bed- I don't just "get out of bed") with a minor dislocated shoulder. Since then that's been taken more seriously- I had an MRI that thankfully showed that everything's normal, and an EEG that was confirming that they're partial-seizures. I started medication about a week and a half ago and so far they've been great. My neurologist isn't sure what it is but it might be temporal epilepsy- but with my medication it's like I don't even have it.
As for next fall, I'm right now trying to decide between the University of Central Florida and Northern Illinois University. Northern is sorta my safety- not in case I don't get into UCF but in case I'm too chicken now to get there. I visited the campus and it was so great. Its programs are strong in every non-art major that I'm interested in. The weather's great and I'm sorta sick of the snow after this winter. I'm worried most of course about being so far away from home after having such a miserable time at my first school. I'm not anticipating another horrible time but all this past year taught me was to expect plans to have to change. I'm already discouraged and I don't know what another horrible time's going to do to me.
Hope everyone else is doing fine~
Gonna hide?
Nowhere
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| | Posted 4/12/2008 10:59 AM - 57 Views - 2 eProps - 3 comments
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